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原帖由 zzpa 于 2009-2-1 00:50 发表
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我一直觉得如果我能稳定的月入1w 我就能想明白这个问题了
我一点都不觉得 ... 如果自己想不明白月入再高都没用 ...
LZ 给你看我之前的一篇日记 ... 我觉得我们现在是一样的状态 ...
旅行归来 ... 2009-01-23 13:39发表
抱着不成功则成仁的心态出发 ... 一团乱麻的返回 ...
事实上这次出走只证明了一件事 ...
冬天没事干还是窝在家里发霉才是正道 ...
在颠沛流离中一直在想 ...
我到底应该找一个怎样的妹子 ...
我喜欢的 ... 喜欢我的 ... 感激我的 ...
我可以提供帮助的 ... 或是可以给我的事业带来帮助的 ...
后来越想越多思绪越来越乱 ... 但是所有的这些最终归到一个问题上 ...
我活着到底是为了什么 ...
为了活着 ..? 为了和 520 在一起 ..?
为了创造价值 ..? 为了享受他人创造的东西 ..?
我无法说服我自己 ... 给自己一个足够有存在感的理由 ...
我一直是一个目的性明确的人 ... 自私 ... 独立 ...
我清楚我做每一件事情是希望得到怎样的后果和为了什么去做 ...
但是当我把目光放远 ... 看出笼子之后 ...
我完全找不到自己存在的意义 ... 我看不到未来 ...
突然觉得我和我的猫没有任何区别 ...
每天胡吃傻睡疯跑 ... 它用身体来换吃的 ... 我用手艺来换吃的 ...
然后一天一天这么下去 ... 直到死去 ...
只是它不会去想自己为什么会在这里 ... 而我会 ...
“生而为人 ... 对不起 ...”
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3:1 After this opened Job his mouth, and cursed his day.
3:2 And Job spoke, and said,
3:3 Let the day perish wherein I was born, and the night in which it was said, There is a man child conceived.
3:4 Let that day be darkness; let not God regard it from above, neither let the light shine on it.
3:5 Let darkness and the shadow of death stain it; let a cloud dwell on it; let the blackness of the day terrify it.
3:6 As for that night, let darkness seize on it; let it not be joined to the days of the year, let it not come into the number of the months.
3:7 See, let that night be solitary, let no joyful voice come therein.
3:8 Let them curse it that curse the day, who are ready to raise up their mourning.
3:9 Let the stars of the twilight thereof be dark; let it look for light, but have none; neither let it see the dawning of the day:
3:10 Because it shut not up the doors of my mother\'s womb, nor hid sorrow from my eyes.
3:11 Why died I not from the womb? why did I not give up the ghost when I came out of the belly?
3:12 Why did the knees prevent me? or why the breasts that I should suck?
3:13 For now should I have lain still and been quiet, I should have slept: then had I been at rest,
3:14 With kings and counsellors of the earth, which build desolate places for themselves;
3:15 Or with princes that had gold, who filled their houses with silver:
3:16 Or as an hidden untimely birth I had not been; as infants which never saw light.
3:17 There the wicked cease from troubling; and there the weary be at rest.
3:18 There the prisoners rest together; they hear not the voice of the oppressor.
3:19 The small and great are there; and the servant is free from his master.
3:20 Why is light given to him that is in misery, and life to the bitter in soul;
3:21 Which long for death, but it comes not; and dig for it more than for hid treasures;
3:22 Which rejoice exceedingly, and are glad, when they can find the grave?
3:23 Why is light given to a man whose way is hid, and whom God has hedged in?
3:24 For my sighing comes before I eat, and my roarings are poured out like the waters.
3:25 For the thing which I greatly feared is come on me, and that which I was afraid of is come to me.
3:26 I was not in safety, neither had I rest, neither was I quiet; yet trouble came. |
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