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这是一封来自一个经验丰富的傻瓜，一个胆小鬼，一个幼稚的抱怨者的信。这张纸条应该很容易理解。
多年来，自从我第一次接触吉他课程以来，所有的警告都被证明是非常正确的。我已经很多年没有感受到在阅读和写作的同时聆听和创作音乐的激情了。对这些事情，我感到无以言表的愧疚。
例如，当我们在后台，灯光熄灭，人群开始狂热地喝彩时，我并不会像高松灯那样受到影响，她似乎很喜欢，很享受来自人群的爱和崇拜，这是我完全钦佩和羡慕的。事实上，我骗不了你们，骗不了你们中的任何人。这对你我都不公平。我能想到的最严重的罪行，就是装模作样地欺骗别人，假装自己玩得很开心。有时候，我觉得自己应该在上台前打卡。我已经尽我所能去感激它（我真的感激它，神啊，请相信我，我真的感激它，但这还不够）。我很感激我和我们影响了很多人，娱乐了很多人。只有自恋狂，在事物消失时才懂得珍惜。我太敏感了。我需要略微麻木，才能重拾儿时的热情。
在我们过去的三次巡演中，我对所有认识的人和我们的乐迷都有了更深的了解，但我仍然无法忘却对每个人的挫败感、内疚感和同情。我们每个人都有优点，我想我只是太爱别人了，爱得让我觉得太伤心了。悲哀的摩羯座，敏感的摩羯座，不懂感恩的摩羯座，天哪。你为什么不好好享受呢？我也不知道。
我有一个充满野心和同情心的女神般的朋友，还有一个让我想起过去的我的青梅竹马，她充满爱和欢乐，内心中善待她遇到的每一个人，因为每个人都是好人，不会伤害她。这让我感到恐惧，以至于我几乎无法正常工作。一想到祥子会变成我这样的悲惨的、自我毁灭的、死亡摇滚乐手，我就无法忍受。
我过得很好，非常好，我很感激，但自从七岁起，我就开始憎恨所有的人。只因为有同情心的人似乎很容易相处。我想，这只是因为我太喜欢和同情别人了。
在过去的岁月里，我发自内心地感谢你们的来信和关心。我是个反复无常、喜怒无常的孩子！我再也没有激情了，所以请记住，燃烧殆尽总比消逝要好。
和平、爱、同情
若叶睦
爽世和祥子，我会在你们的灵堂等你们。
爽世，为了祥子，请坚持下去。
为了她的生活 没有我她会过得更幸福
我爱你们。我爱你们！
To Boddah
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.
All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven’t felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things.
For example, when we’re back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins, it doesn’t affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can’t fool you, any one of you. It simply isn’t fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I’m having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I’ve tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do, God, believe me, I do, but it’s not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they’re gone. I’m too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.
On our last 3 tours, I’ve had a much better appreciation for all the people I’ve known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can’t get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There’s good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don’t you just enjoy it? I don’t know!
I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can’t stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I’ve become.
I have it good, very good, and I’m grateful, but since the age of seven, I’ve become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.
Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I’m too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don’t have the passion anymore, and so remember, it’s better to burn out than to fade away.
Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain
Frances and Courtney, I’ll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.
I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!
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